It has been a long time since I have made a post. It has been difficult for me to find the desire to even try, much less actually post something. I was struggling with things until the middle of March and then I just gave up for a while. I am just starting to feel like I am ready to begin the struggles to continue forward and it is almost June. I could blame it on a lot of little things or a few big things, but the truth is I alone am to blame. I just wanted to quit. I was tired and beaten down. I saw no reason to continue the struggle. Now I am still tired and I still see little hope of success, but I am ready to face the struggles of life once again.
I didn't write very much at all in my journal or on this blog during that time. I have managed to do a good bit of writing on my new book though. I am hoping to finish that soon. The work was flowing well and then came to a crashing halt one day when my computer crashed. It took a few weeks to get things back in order. I have begun writing again and a few new doors have been opened to me concerning my writing. As I have continued to climb the mountain that has been placed before me I have gained a new look at life. I still don't know what lies beyond the mountain, but I know that I must go find out. Perhaps it will be still, green, valleys with beautiful streams, but it may be rough, jagged, rocks beneath high cliffs. That makes little difference in the end. The Lord set the mountain before me and the Lord has prepared what lies beyond the mountain too. I trust the Lord... so I climb the mountain. I trust the Lord... so I will accept whatever he has waiting for me beyond the mountain.
That trust is all I have and that trust is all I need. The Lord will see to everything else if I just hang onto my trust in him. That trust has kept me in place while the Lord restored my strength and my desire to go on. It has been a long slow climb up this mountain, but one I must continue. Because no matter where it may lead me the Lord will already be there waiting for me.
